Extroverts Can Be Socially Anxious

Hi everyone!! Soo.. if you are hardcore readers of my blog you've probably noticed I didn't just open with my usual 'Hola Lexicans!', and I just thought I'd put it out there I have decided to stop opening with Hola Lexicans. At first I really liked it (obviously or I wouldn't have used it for 2+ years!) but now I'm a little older, and as cute as it is, I do think it's a little cringey for me now (although tbh i'm very cringey)! Don't worry, I'm not changing the style of my blog at all, other than this little cut - it's just something I've been thinking of getting rid of for a while, so I thought 'why not?' Anywayyy, talking about change, today's post is one that is a little different than usual (although I still hope y'all will enjoy it) and I will be talking about a topic quite close to my heart - Extroverts Can Be Socially Anxious. Before I begin quickly, I want to say that I will be talking about my personal experiences and how I'm 'socially anxious.' I would like to say, I do not have diagnosed anxiety, so I understand I cannot compare what I feel to someone with a legitimate mental illness, but I still am an anxious person sometimes.

Extraversion-Introversion is one of the most popular and well-known personality theories. An extrovert is an outgoing, socially confident person (according to good old Google) aka somebody loud, bubbly and chatty. I would 100% class myself as an extrovert. My parents would. My siblings would (well at least my sister would, my little brother would be like 'extro what?!') My teachers would. My friends would. All the tests I take online when I'm bored would. There is no doubt in my mind that I am an extrovert. However, that being said, I possess a lot of traits that go against the common 'extraversion qualities...'
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I am a very socially anxious and awkward person. However, at the same time I love to chat + socialise (IT'S HARD TO EXPLAIN I KNOW!!). For example, on a Friday night a typical 'extrovert' thing to do would be to want to go out with friends (or party if you're older hahaha) but my fav thing to do on a Friday is 100% Netflix and chocolate. Also, the idea of going for a sleepover *fills* me with dread and anxiety. It's not that I don't love my friends in the slightest, I love them all so much and it's not that I get particularly homesick or miss my family (in the nicest way possible!). I don't know why, and I can't explain it, but I really really don't like sleepovers.

As sad as this sounds, and honestly it's not even that big of deal to me, but a lot of my confidence is very much fake. People think I'm confident very naturally, but I truly believe I'm not. When I was in primary school, I vividly remember one of my reports saying something to do with me being 'serious and shy'. If I told this to my current friends they would laugh in my face, but it's true. Whilst I'm not 'serious and shy' at heart - I'm not exactly this super confident person either. I have low self-esteem sometimes too, and whilst again I am making this sound more dramatic than it is, but I just laugh it off so people don't realise.

I talk and laugh all the time for a reason... Because when I don't talk, I think. And when I think, I cry...

Now I'd like to stress, for me it is NOT THAT BAD, but for others this is a reality^^ Please do not assume just because we have a tough, confident, laugh-it-off exterior, that on the inside we are the same way...

SO.. that was quite a deep post hahahah, I just thought I'd switch it off and say something that a lot of the time people don't realise. I want to reiterate that I'm not saying this is the same for all extroverts, as we are not all the same, but yeah! Hope you enjoyed?! I know a lot of the blogging community are introverts so probably don't relate, but let me know if you do, and just your overall thoughts on what I said.. Anything you disagree with?? Anything you'd add?? And let me know in the comments if you class yourself as an extrovert, ambivert or introvert.


Brightstorm - Review and Blog Tour

Hola Lexicans! So a few days ago, the lovely Olivia at Scholastic emailed me asking if I'd like to read a new book coming out - Brightstorm and be part of the blog tour which started on the 5th and is ending on the 9th, and naturally I said yes. And so today is my turn to post a review on this new book which released last week on the 1st.

Brightstorm tells the story of twins Arthur + Maudie and their journey around the world. The story begins with the twins hearing the devastating news that their dad - an explorer has passed away on a recent expedition. But not only that, fellow explorers are now accusing the twins' father of stealing from his competitors before his death. Desperate to seek life away from their dreadful new guardians, and wanting to prove their father's innocence, the two join Captain Harriet Culpepper's sky-ship - which is heading the same way their dad attempted to.. to try and find some clues as well as starting a new life.

Ok I'll be honest I'm a terrible blogger I've been very busy so didn't have time to finish this book in time for my book tour date today (although hopefully I will do in the next few days!!) but I've got a good enough way in to the book to give an opinion and know that I'm really enjoying it. One of the things I love about this book is the crushing of gender stereotypes!! It's known that there is a ridiculous stereotype for boys being better at mathematical and scientific things, whereas girls are meant to be more creative and doing chores, but in this book, Maudie's biggest talent is engineering and Arthur's is cooking, which crushes those stupid stereotypes. There's also a badass female explorer (Harriet Culpepper) who I love!! Another thing I love about this book, is Arthur has a disability, but it doesn't stop him at all - and whilst Vashti (the author) addresses his disability, it doesn't affect him much.

And then not only do I love the characters, but the plot is very interesting and clever too. I'll be honest.. the book is a sci-fi/fantasy with an element of mystery which (except the mystery) really isn't my cup of tea normally, so it took a little bit of time to get into but now it's got my attention and I really enjoy reading it - it's a nice break from the YA contemporary books I've been reading lots of lately(!!). As you know, I haven't finished it yet so I can't give a full opinion of the plot - but so far it's gripping, fast-paced and intriguing.

This is definitely one I think my younger readers will enjoy more - although if you want a break from your comfort zone, this is a great MG book. I'd recommend this primarily to girls and boys aged around 8-12, and I think this will become very popular:)

What books have y'all been reading lately? I'll be back soon with a new post:)

Lexie x


February Recap

Hola Lexicans! So today is the second day of March.. oOf I actually cannot believe the second month of 2018 is over already - it feels like the first two months have just gone by in a flash (is it just me??!!). So since February is over now and y'all always seem to love my Monthly Favourites/Update/Recap/Ramble/{insert here whatever this post turns out to be} hahaha* I thought why not share with you guys a little recap of how my February has been, what I've been up to etc. etc.

*also don't worry I meant to leave that in.. it wasn't a mental note-to-self I forgot to change when editing ahaha but instead an attempt to be witty.. it failed.. ik ik.. fIGHT ME**
**please don't actually i'm a weakling with no strength who lowkey*** practically lives off bread rolls and dairy milk oreo
***sidenote: for some reason I say lowkey so much lately aha

Friends (the show)

Ok.. so Friends came onto Netflix UK right around the end of 2017 and I'd wanted to watch it for a while, so I figured yess this is finally my chance!! And then I forgot and I didn't watch it.. Until early February when two of my bestfriends had started watching it and where talking about it loads sooo being the person I am, not wanting to be left out, I started watching it. and less than a month later.. I've kinda finished it. shhhhh I KNOW I KNOW 10 seasons in less than a month is bad, but the show is soo good aha. Have you watched Friends? Who are your favourite characters? Mine are (in order from favourite to least fav): Monica, Chandler, Rachel, Joey, Phoebe and Ross (controversial order I know ahah!!).
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Goodbye, Perfect and A Spoonful Of Murder released

Lots of great books were launching this month, including two I was lucky enough to have already read. Goodbye, Perfect, a YA novel by Sara Barnard was released (you can read my review of it here: on the 8th, and it's a great book all about the power of a close friendship. And A Spoonful Of Murder by the lovely Robin Stevens was also released. ASOM is the 6th book in the very popular Murder Most Unladylike series for 8-13 year olds and I also really enjoyed it (you can check out my review here:

Waterstones Children's Book Prize 2018 shortlist announced

Early February, Waterstones announced their shortlist for the annual Waterstones Children's Book Prize. This year, I have only read 2 books on the shortlist so far (Ink by Alice Broadway and Goldfish Boy by Lisa Thompson) but I plan to read a few more leading up to the ceremony. You can see the full shortlist here:

Lack of posts??

I'm really really disappointed with the lack of blog posts I have uploaded in February - normally I aim for around 5-6 posts a month, but I only posted 2..! I'm not sure why this is, although I would guess it's partly because I've been watching Friends, and when I watch a TV show I often don't get much else done until I've finished (whoops!!), and I know it's really bad. However, I'm planning on getting the amount of posts back up to usual again this month:)


sO IT SNOWED (also I know the main days of it snowing were in March, so I'm kind of cheating here - but there was some at the end of Feb too)!! Despite being cold so often, England doesn't actually get snow that often so when the forecasts started saying that snow was planned, I did get quite excited. To be honest, I'm not a big fan of snow itself (because it's cold and inconvenient - plus it's March and I thought summer was coming:( ) but I like all the pros that come with it, like the fact that I'm missing school today (and did so yesterday) because of the snow!! I took a few photos yesterday and I'm planning on taking some more today in the snow, so make sure you're following my Instagram @whatlexieloves to see those at some point;)


So those are some of the random things that happened this month!! Did you have a good February? And let me know if you like Friends as well!! I'll be back soon with a post as part of a book tour, so make sure you're there for that;)